I wrote this one Friday, because I feel that I need to address the personal perspective.
So here are a few things.
Life to me is a ride, and I’ve fallen off more time than I can count. I look at this life and all I can say is”¦..Damn, it’s been a hell of a ride. I sit here and think, wondering, why do things happen the way they do? Is it because of previous mistakes? Because of my choices? My attitude? My persona?
Well, it is very difficult to fully analyze and critique my own life. I look at everything from a systematic standpoint. There’s no gray area in my eyes, either you do or you don’t. It’s simplicity, and for a long time, I thought it worked. Well, now, I see things aren’t so ”˜simple.’ If I’m so complex, how I can expect my life to be simple?
I have a complex personality, but I look at my goal”¦.and it’s simple”¦.to be the best in everything I do. I am a perfectionist, serious in every aspect. It’s behind my expression as well. It’s who I am, I can’t deny it, and I fought years to change it.
I finally look around in my room”¦”¦and I see everything that I have and everything that I cherish. I then look to my health, and think about my mom, family, and pretty much every person who I know and who knows me. I couldn’t trade any point or person for anything else. If I could do it all over again”¦.I would. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be here sitting down writing this.
My lesson for today is”¦”¦the ride is worth it”¦.only when God is driving.