3/5/07 – Dealing with Life….

God, it is becoming so hard to actually write a freaking note now. I do not know what is going to happen right now with a lot of things in my life. I just want to freeze everything, step back, and recollect myself. Right now, I feel like I’m in no condition whatsoever to deal with anything. It’s like I’m going through the motions, still trying to be the student, friend, best friend, vice president, employee, and even a person. There’s no emotion, drive, or focus in it, though. Honestly, I wanna wake up and see that these last 4 days, I was dreaming. Like nothing happened, and it was Thursday, 4pm and I never got the call in class that basically set my life in a downward spiral.