Doubt is hitting worse than ever during this time. When things start going haywire, a person can feel if the world is just caving in. This is the point where a person begins to show the doubt inside.

I don’t really know what to make of my current situation and my current events in my life. When the foundation is shaken as hard as it is, it leaves with questions and concerns. Will I still be me? Can I still continue as Los?

For the past couple of weeks, I have been under that question. I try to keep it together, trying to stay this pillar of strength that I always want to be, but it is not working. This ordeal has truly changed me, for better or worse. I really don’t know which one though.

There’s a few times when the “jabroni beatin’, pie eatin’, trailblazin’, eyebrow razin’, always dedicated, always motivated, don’t really mean to boast, but damn it I’m Los” side of me wants to come out, but I can’t. (derived from The Rock). For the first time in a while, I’m actually stumped.