At times I wanted revenge
So bad I had to cry
I even wished them pain, I wanted to see them die
For crippling my present, wondering who I should be
To be the better man, and put it behind me
I walked away, I left it dead,
I walked from the fight, I lost my head
So I changed the path and changed my voice
I took the path of my choice
Then the questions rose up, “Why you left me”
The answer was basically, “You shoulda kept me”
I was there and then you blew me off
Now shit gets real you chew me off
People make beds, but can’t lie in em
Thinking others are better than them
Finally realizing what was always true
Real was in your face, but you had no clue
Let’s go, let’s get em, let’s put em down
Never realizing who you made a clown
Truly realizing at the end of the day
You were the only one gaining pounds
Of frustration, homie tell me why
Why I shouldn’t just leave you to wither and die
Why I shouldn’t just walk away
Nobody would miss you if you died today
I don’t give a fuck if you lived or died
When you fight against me, pick a side
Forgiveness for your ass, trust I tried
But the anger in the game is hard to hide
At times I wanted revenge
So bad I had to cry
I even wished them pain, I wanted to see them die
For crippling my present, wondering who I should be
To be the better man, and put it behind me
(put it behind me (4x))
My story random, my rhyme tight
I put the speed on the line sight
To let people know that my mind right
My vision is better, even in hindsight
In retrospect, I’m over the past
Know my first, and my last
Soul in my hands, I will grasp
My life, my control is here at last
Change the game so haters get schooled
Now Los in control and I make the rules
I forgive the guy who kicked, the many bullies who picked
The chicks who laughed in my face, the many faces I hit
The desire I had to kill, the passion I lacked in life
The will to pick on others, the desire I had to fight
I let go all of that burden, best believe I’m free
To live my life strong, to continue to be me
At times I wanted revenge
So bad I had to cry
I even wished them pain, I wanted to see them die
For crippling my present, wondering who I should be
To be the better man, and put it behind me
(put it behind me (4x))
Now to forgive myself for lying
Forgive my heat for dying
In the blackness of my life
I forgive myself for not trying
To always keep my head up, even when I want it down
Not keeping a smile on my face, when I wanted to frown
God forgive me for my anger, waging war on my past
I was raised better than that, to treat people with class
I was raised to be better, rise above the hate
But to maintain humility, even when my life is great
I bury my past life, including the people in it
I do not hate those people, but I just reached my limit
Patience is my virture, past is my lesson
I know that present and future have God’s protection
At times I wanted revenge
So bad I had to cry
I even wished them pain, I wanted to see them die
For crippling my present, wondering who I should be
To be the better man, and put it behind me
(put it behind me (4x))
inspired by Vybe Beats- TheZone