2.5 hours before final exam #3….man it’s been a month since something was written…
A month away from the game, a month away from being who I am and what I do. I have been away from the pen and pad to come back stronger, more lyrical, and more influential with my vision, my words, my lyrics, and my direction.
Basically the first 5 months of 2010 was me stepping back into who I am. It was me taking each aspect and working on it at a time. Physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, I have tried to make strides in this improvement because of one thing: lack of satisfaction. Until I realize what I believe is my best, I will not stop trying to push each aspect of myself to the limit. My physical strides are documented as now I am stronger than I have ever been. Regaining a lot of my youthful talents was the most difficult thing I have ever done. The thing with talent is that once you lost it, either you work twice as hard to get it back or it is lost forever.
The next move for me….is to keep pushing, to keep striving.
I write for expression, my words are my voice.
I follow God for protection, his way is my choice.
After a lot of the bird, greens, peas, cake, pies, the whole nine yards, I got a second to sit and say what I am thankful for this year.
I’m thankful for this year being the rebirth of LosEvolution. A lot of people had a hand in it and I’m truly thankful for all of them. Honestly, it started when I pledged Iota Phi Theta and it continued from that point. Evolution is constant and I will never stop evolving. After today, I set new goals, new visions, and a new insight.
1st Topic: Happy Birthday and Removing Negativity
For me, a birthday is a new start. Whatever happened before 10:17am on June 18th no longer concerns me. Not putting it mildly, I honestly no longer care. All the worrying and emotional downsizing has done nothing but created a negative void. At one time, I felt as if the void would swallow me whole, without any remorse. The more I evolved, the more a light went off inside of my mind. I realized that I grew negative and I was sick of it.
2nd Topic: A Viper is Born
Something about this guy is insanity…the entrance music, the lights on the entrance, guess Orton found his mold…finally. Cutthroat, remorseless, snaps at a drop of a dime…a viper. Gotta love that entrance music.
3rd Topic: A Poem
Through darkness, there is light.
Regardless of how hard, always keep up the fight
Never letting your destiny out of sight
Never giving in to your fright
Always me, day and night
LosEvolution.com is me, it is my way
A way to articulate thoughts, a way to say
To say what’s on my mind, what I love and hate
I have a voice that has the knowledge, and the power to rule your fate
So what does this have to do with anything? Well, for a long time, I’ve felt myself going through life on the edge of a void where my light couldn’t escape. My consciousness always goes through the negative and positive thoughts, left and right sounding like interior voices. All of this led to nothing but negativity, and basically I’m at a point where I’m sick of it. I look at my birthday and I should be the happiest person alive, but all I can think about is past mistakes, life situations, and to the fact that for the past three years, I have been unable to share this day with my aunt like I used to. This is usually the reason I went into seclusion on this day because sometimes, it isn’t exactly a happy one. But I’m going to try to make this one happy. I’m also going to try to maintain a clear vision on my life.
I didn’t think of myself with a one-track mind, but it appears that I do have one. I like things to be simple and rarely complicated; for I fear that when things are complicated, they are rarely good. I have a vision of who and what I want to be and once that vision is clear, I do whatever it takes to get there. It is not a desire to be perfect, but a desire to be morally and politically correct.
At one time, past mistakes were my influence. A solemn concept, don’t screw up where you once screwed up before. My mistakes were made….so what? No point on letting them influence me. My influences are my future, my visions, what God puts in my mind and heart.