The Trio of Greatness

My single goal was to be the best…bar none. The bar setter, the go-getter, the one and only, not a one trick pony, best in the world.

As the emotion creeps while I write this, I will focus on 3 points: Perfection, Precision, and Focus.

“Be the best you can be”
I honestly blanked out when the “you can be” was said. This meant that I only heard the 1st part of the statement. I only heard that I needed to be the best. From that standpoint, I modeled myself after many things and many people, in an effort to reach this ‘perfect’ persona. The perfect intellectual, physical specimen, spiritual individual, every aspect…I strived for perfection. I knew everything that I touched would not be gold, but I thought I could at least make it silver or close to gold.

Everything about me is calculated. Thought, steps, direction, emotions, it is all a concise, calculated direction. No matter what has been said or done, there is always a contemplation, a motive, and a reason.

Focus is a sense that I took to the extreme.

With all this in mind, I had a concise thought and kinda lost direction on what needed to be and what wanted to be.

Life is not about 100% wants or 100% needs. There is a middle ground, and I will spend my life trying to find it.

The Animal Mentality

For the past 6 months, I can say there has been a little of this…..

in me. It has been evolving all over, starting from my mentality in the weight room to, now every aspect in my life. Let’s face it, since I was a kid, I took the concept of ‘the best’ literally. For me, it was 100% or bust. Anything I looked at and decided that I can do, I wanted to be great at it.
Now I know what I can and cannot do. The thing is that I may know my limits, but I want to know how far I can push this envelope. The secret to this is that I absolutely refuse the shortcuts. To be multifaceted, multidimensional, and to constantly push all limits. This is Me. This is LosEvolution.

“This is Animal. Can you handle it?”

The Next Move

2.5 hours before final exam #3….man it’s been a month since something was written…

A month away from the game, a month away from being who I am and what I do. I have been away from the pen and pad to come back stronger, more lyrical, and more influential with my vision, my words, my lyrics, and my direction.

Basically the first 5 months of 2010 was me stepping back into who I am. It was me taking each aspect and working on it at a time. Physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, I have tried to make strides in this improvement because of one thing: lack of satisfaction. Until I realize what I believe is my best, I will not stop trying to push each aspect of myself to the limit. My physical strides are documented as now I am stronger than I have ever been. Regaining a lot of my youthful talents was the most difficult thing I have ever done. The thing with talent is that once you lost it, either you work twice as hard to get it back or it is lost forever.

The next move for me….is to keep pushing, to keep striving.

I write for expression, my words are my voice.
I follow God for protection, his way is my choice.

Change – Victim or Product?

Ahhh, change. It is the only constant in the world. Over the years, one can say that he or she is a product or a victim of change. The change happens, so what is the difference?

Well, it is indeed a huge one.

A victim of change is one who did not choose the changes of his or her individual world. Rather, these changes happened and were not accepted. In this standpoint, the changes appear negative to the person; thus, making the person a victim of change.

A product of change is one who is the result of the change within. It is the result of evolution, the positivity behind the constant change. The person accepts and embraces the changes within and/or to the environment.

I feared change, because of what it is. It is a different mindset, a different mentality, a different approach to the many things of life. As I began to change, the fear kept coming, but one thing was certain: Either I would be a victim or a product of the changes to come. I can say for years, I have been a product, but this year is more significant than others. 6 years passed since my high school graduation and I am not two months away from my college degree. Physically, I am perhaps the greatest shape of my life. Weightlifting has taught me so much about myself and my capabilities. Through it, I have mentally found myself at a state that I am more philosopical with my thoughts, relying on the things that are printed in scripture and the morals I have learned over the years. I do know now that I am a product of the changes that happened in my life. Some I set in motion, others happened beyond my control.

“I embrace change because I embrace myself. I am water, constantly flowing, constantly changing. Shapeless…..” – inspired by Bruce Lee’s quote

“Don’t get set into one form, adapt it and build your own, and let it grow, be like water. Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless ”” like water. Now you put water in a cup, it becomes the cup; You put water into a bottle it becomes the bottle; You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend.” – Bruce Lee

Site Update: The Loose Ends (New Lyrics)

If you follow me on Twitter (which you should by the way, because of its random awesomeness) or check my Facebook (which you should also because it is on another level of its own), you would know about this little jewel I have been working on.

It is a mere continuation of The Paper Trail called The Loose Ends. This one was inspired by Yo Gotti, using a lot of the beats of his best tracks.

Intro – inspired by Cocaine Muzik 2’s Intro
Full Time Snappin – inspired by Full Time
With The Mic – inspired by Standing in the Kitchen
My Passion – inspired by Shoot off
Loose Ends – inspired by Shoot off
Eff Them Haters – inspired by I Got Em
Call Me Los – inspired by That’s What’s Up
You Screwed – inspired by 5 Star Chick
Paper Trail (Outro)

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