Still I’m Los

I speak to the world, tell em I haven’t changed
I tell the freaking world that I’m the boy, still the same
Still got the same smile, got the same ol roll
Just a stand up attitude, here’s how the story told
I say it true, honest as the boy can freaking be
Got bashed for it, called an ass for the world to see
But I look high, stand tall, and still up a smile
Cuz I came a long way, to be a man from a child
Huff and puff cuz I stood up and made a stroll
To a new destination, strong, and a nigga really roll
Soft spoken and silent after oh so many years
Got tired of looking up and wasting my tears
But toss the dust, the bullshit aside and asunder
Cuz I stand stall throughout the entire lil blunder
For all those who know a blunder is a fuck up
Cuz I know there are many points where I still luck up

I ain’t changed, I ain’t whipped
I ain’t cold, I ain’t heartless
Still I’m Los, no matter what
Still I’m Los, no matter what
I ain’t broke, I ain’t rich
I ain’t a punk, I ain’t a bitch
But I’m me, no matter what
But I’m me, no matter what

So when I make a stand and move, they call me cold
But I look at ya and say that the story is so old.
When I’m constant and the same, everything so cool
But the secret is that everything is not cool
I remember the times I had to cry myself to sleep
Cuz of a story that hurt me from the head to the feet
Confused as hell, I didn’t know what was going wrong
But all I know that the hate was there so strong
I remember my depression, years of crying and lying
But now I know that all I gotta do is keep trying
I keep trying to grind, keep trying to improve
Maintaining a lil rhythm, trying to stay in the groove
Not letting the chance slip by, so I gotta move.
And I gotta stay real and gotta stay cool
And remain true to my morals and my rules

I ain’t changed, I ain’t whipped
I ain’t cold, I ain’t heartless
Still I’m Los, no matter what
Still I’m Los, no matter what
I ain’t broke, I ain’t rich
I ain’t a punk, I ain’t a bitch
But I’m me, no matter what
But I’m me, no matter what

I weather the storm without any cut or scrapes
I cover my story up like a window with drapes
Cuz this is one story that is coming to a close
One story that went up and down and fell in the hole
Tried and true were my points and the premonitions
I done won all awards, even the honorable mentions
I honorably mention my God, he the one I serve
I honorably mention my fam, they gave me all my nerve
I honorably mention my friends, crew, and those who know me
Normally I’ll tell the haters, “Ya know what, blow me.”,
But I mention you too cuz without you I can’t shine
Cuz a guy need haters to help him spit this rhyme
I’m not who ya said or who ya made me to be
I’m that guy suppressed inside so you can’t see
But now I’m out and I see the world for what it is
I realize all a guy can do is let go and live
And I realize that I exist for one purpose, that’s to be who I am, not a clown in this circus
No strings, no tricks, I won’t eject, I let go and let God deal with life, no regret………