Juu – It’s Still There

Guess how many times I had to fess up to myself that what was felt is still there….

I remember a time where I was young
Brash and silly, even sometimes dumb
When I didn’t know what I had until it was gone
And all I could do is try to remain strong
I was so concerned with title, so concerned with status
That I didn’t pay attention to the subtle habits
Truth of it is that I had the position
All I had to do was simply complete the mission

I know you remember me because I remember you
There’s no one that I’ve met who’s quite like you
I said you’re a one of a kind with a deep mind
That I’d sink into, while I’m on my grind
And keep giving time till I’m not in my prime
Put a full effort into it instead of part-time
Make it consistent, show what’s truly felt
Keep doing all the things that make the heart melt
Because what was truly there was a simple truth
That there indeed was a me and there was a you
I put the truth out there and apologize
For the lies that I told you square in your eyes

Too timid and shy to put the game on
Afraid I’d do too much right when I kept doing wrong
All I needed was the courage I got now
And the wherewithal in life to show me how
To be a strong man, because I can
Do all the things in my life that I plan
A common gamer with salt in your veins
Pride higher than your height, I loved the game
I got too used to playing that I quit the work
And saw something I cherish went so berserk
So it’s lost to me now and I see what you said
That I didn’t need to let my emotions go to my head
So I see your name and speak only when I feel
Hopefully it’s realized that when I speak it’s real
I didn’t know what it meant to truly keep touch
I just know the true feeling to be a clutch
So I’m a simple recluse, I live in shadow
Not in the shadow of others, just in my shadow
I am not distant as I’m always a call away
Willing to respond to a text night or day
So don’t write me as not caring when my heart pleads to you
Even after the night I walked away when it was said, “We’re through”
But girl, what qualities was I looking for before?
Who you settling for? Who better for you than the boy, huh?

[hook]

Young, naive, in a dorm playing spades
Honey walked in and simply misbehaving
Tipsy in her voice, speech, and walk
She sobered up though, as we made small talk
But what I didn’t realize started to begin
What the blue hell did I talk myself in?
Next thing you know, that phone lit up
Soft voice on the line, said, Hey, what’s up?
I know you remember me because I remember you
There’s no one that I’ve met who’s quite like you
I said you’re a one of a kind with a deep mind
That I’d sink into, while I’m on my grind
Literally and figuratively, you had me from hello
And willing to go wherever you want to go
So here’s the true story and how it went down
The love that I felt made me feel down
Because I didn’t feel it reciprocated, so I kept walking
And didn’t realize the moment, that if we kept talking
That the love was always there, just had to open my eyes
And look past the hardship of my tries
So I’m sorry for not seeing, should’ve kept pursuing
Should’ve kept romanticizing, kept your heart wooing
But girl, what qualities was I looking for before?
Who you settling for? Who better for you than the boy, huh?

–inspired by Drake – From Time