Forgiveness Revisited

I’m over the story, I’m over the talk
I’m over the times I should have been laid with the chalk
Drawn around my dead body, laid so lifeless
Forgiveness is the real benefit, kid have you tried this?
Or have you said you forgive and once the moment comes
You bring it up again just to have some
Advantage in a moment, reminding what was done
But if forgiveness was truly there, you would’ve never pointed the gun
I owned up to all my mistakes, apologized and kept moving
Because multiple apologies will not be soothing
To the heart in its breaks, to the soul in its shakes
Like a rock in the lake, it’ll be still again in its wake

I dream of a moment when I’m done apologizing
I dream of a time where the pain will not be rising
And I wake up again and realize it was a dream
Forgiveness is like tossing a fish back in a stream
(x2)

I remember when I was overlooked and pushed to the side
I sat on my hands and was grateful for the ride
I knew from the start when I asked I was outclassed
Wasn’t the first, the 2nd, the 3rd, or the last
I wrote about that shit, burned and tossed aside
Even looked at the shit that I tried to hide
Truth of it is, I care less of what isn’t my truth
I stood strong with my life, kid, here’s my proof
I changed everything about me to fit a certain mold
But over the years, I realized that shit was so old
So I kept my heart in my chest instead of my sleeve
So I can easily move on when my mind felt the need
Logic guides my emotions, cold and calculated
I looked at my body and said it need to be emasculated
I don’t deserve to be overlooked, like a subtle wind blow
Simply put, how’s that for #LettingGo?

I dream of a moment when I’m done apologizing
I dream of a time where the pain will not be rising
And I wake up again and realize it was a dream
Forgiveness is like tossing a fish back in a stream

Look at who was so passive..my actions stronger than you can imagine
I did more in 10 years than ya man in life
Looked at my future and swore that I would fight
Because all I want to do is make money and make change
Perhaps it IS time to rethink and rearrange
I lived for the game, I lived for the choice
I lived for the moment that you can hear my voice
Finally what can be seen is what I spoke of for years
Thankful to God for wiping the years of tears
And taking away all the sorrow and pain
Finally, letting my optimism and compassion reign
Happy to be looked at, glad to be considered
I know that the life I lived can’t be mirrored
I’m so much better than what I was back then
But what I knew back then is what I invested my life in
So now it’s God, life, money, and gaming
Now everyone can see the investments I’m claiming
I invested in my word, and each time it was kept
Wonder who really noticed it aside from myself?

–inspired by Vybe Beats – GetToKnowYa
-remixed using Drake/Jay-Z – PoundCake