AL – Mortal Wounds

I remember good times of life, my heart racing
The moments in my life were real, no simulation
But now all I start to remember in my life is the pain
That I felt in my life struggling trying to win the game
I got mortal wounds that would’ve caused my death
Cut, sores, scars, some I even did to myself
But these scars are not on my body to see
These are the ones I keep between God and me
The ones that I cry about when it gets so hard
To maintain my composure, even Los can fall apart
I have to pull myself together and let my heart bleed
And stop living a life of pain, power, and greed
The pain from being hurt so many times is in my heart
Causing me to make life decisions that really aren’t smart
Like change my life path, just to suit another person
Or look towards one person and pull the curtain
Over their eyes filled with pride and trying to hide
So I don’t have to make a choice and pick a side
I gotta make a decision, I need to make up my mind
Before I run out of life, I run out of time

The side I choose is mine and mine alone
I’m done fighting against fate, that time is gone
I just didn’t know that it would be so soon
That I could cause my tainted soul a mortal wound

So here’s my decision and here’s my choice
I follow my own mind, heart, and my own voice
I’m done with sub-par, and I’m done with second chances
I’m done with second looks, forget your second glance
The first one should have been this way from the start
I’m not in the business of saying it wasn’t smart
But I was hurt and took what I needed to feel better
Praying for clearer skies, I’m tired of cloudy weather
The question where I stand is I stand alone
Just forgive my heart and my mind for my wrong
I have to walk this path alone to grow stronger
The way I’m living life now, I can’t do it any longer
I can’t keep taking risk and taking shots in the park
I need to know once and for all if I’m hitting the mark
If I am falling short, help me to correct the fall
So I can stand on your shoulders and finally feel tall

The side I choose is mine and mine alone
I’m done fighting against fate, that time is gone
I just didn’t know that it would be so soon
That I could cause my tainted soul a mortal wound

–inspired by DinamicoBeatz – Forever